![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
WHO: Liv Moore
WHERE: House 42
WHEN: 30 October, evening
OPEN TO: Major Lilywhite
WARNINGS: n/a
WHERE: House 42
WHEN: 30 October, evening
OPEN TO: Major Lilywhite
WARNINGS: n/a
There was a point, awhile back now, when Ravi had disappeared. Two days he'd been gone, and I hadn't even noticed for a full 24 hours. We hadn't been rooming together then, and it's the kind of situation where if it happened to someone other than me, I'd be telling that person they really shouldn't feel guilty. But I did then, and I do now.
Especially now, even though this time around I noticed right away. Because the thing is, this time, I think he might not be coming back.
That first day, I had a confab with Major, had talked about the time before, Ravi showing up right back in the fountain, soaked and brimming with months of experiences he hadn't had before. If it's happened once, it can happen again, right? Except that it's been five days now and there's still no Ravi.
This place, it makes stuff like this hard. Harder, I guess I should say; losing someone is never easy. I went through this once before, right after I hauled my own self out of the fountain. Major had poofed before I'd even gotten a chance to see him, and Ravi and I spent a week, longer, thinking he might turn back up. No dice then, and maybe no dice now, but who really knows? Ravi didn't die. There's no body to bury (or scratch). There's no closure, because his chapter here might not even be over. He could turn up tomorrow or a week from now or a year, remember everything or nothing at all. And those of us left behind are expected to just go with it.
And we do, because what other choice do we really have? I can't even tell if I want to cry, although I know for a fact I'd really like to scream.
Instead, I'm sitting at the table in the little kitchen of the little house I've been sharing with Ravi and Major, the table where we eat most of our dinners even though there's a perfectly serviceable dining room, too. Me and Ravi and Major and Bucky, and sometimes it's awkward, but mostly it's good.
Was, I should say.
I'm sitting at the table and I have a cup of herbal tea, mostly just for something warm to hold, and I'm waiting for Major to come home and have the talk he knows is coming.