11 - Lost Heart [OPEN]

[chosenbytheocean]

WHO: Moana
WHERE: 7I – Ocean
WHEN: August 3rd
OPEN TO: EVERYONE
WARNINGS: None

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Sad Thoughts & Losses

Small earthquakes had begun to tremble through the two villages but Moana didn't pay them any attention. She crossed the breach and made her way towards the ocean that rested on the other side, hoping to find a friend waiting for her.

She stood at the shore, her feet bare while the wind tugged softly at her grass skirts. There was so much that Moana wanted to ask the ocean but she couldn't find her voice. She knew that it wouldn't reply to her, she was too far from the home that she knew. Frustration rose in her chest and she kicked at the water, sending thick droplets into the air around her.

"Why aren't you here!?" She yelled at the water before falling to her hands and knees. Everything hit her at once: the loss of her friends, the loss of the heart and the constant reminder of her failure that hung like a beacon around her neck. Moana began to cry softly, her body shaking as the tears streamed freely down her cheeks.

"I need you." She whispered to the ocean, her voice soft as she begged for some way to escape the crushing defeat that weighed heavily on her shoulders.

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[chosenbytheocean]

Moana leaned against his side. "I don't want to give up but it's hard to keep going." She closed her eyes, hoping that somehow it might change where she was and everything that's happened.

Nothing changed.

She was trapped, watched but she wasn't alone. "Thank you. I'm sorry. I won't give up. I promise but..." She felt tears well to her eyes. "For right now. Is it okay to take a break. Just for today." She didn't want him to see her cry but she couldn't stop as the first tear glided down her cheek.

[seekingcrocodile]

"I don't know nearly as much about building boats as I do about sailing them, but we should be able to come up with something passable. Something seaworthy enough to go along the coast, at least." So that they could explore from there, and maybe find a boundary and a way out.

[chosenbytheocean]

Moana planned to go further out than just along the shore but she wasn't going to bring it up now. She'd wait and see what they could make and then tell him or possibly just leave the island.

"Right." She paused. "I'd like to sit here a little longer. I'm done crying." She looked up at Killian with a soft smile. "Promise. I just want to look out at the ocean."

[beallmysins]

"You find something I need protecting from, I'll appreciate the cover. Until then? You build that boat and I've got your back," Jax assures her. She's just a kid, really, but there's so much shit she can do that he can't and never will be able to and he'd be a fool not to admire that.

"We'll get out of here. You have to show me your island someday."

[bit_fairytale]

"That's not unique," Amy says, trying to soften the words, but she feels like she needs to say it. "I've seen galaxies, the past, the future, dinosaurs on a spaceship and aliens on earth and beyond, and I still barely understand any of it," she admits, which is saying nothing about the headache of a knot that her relationship with her daughter is.

"If the ocean is special and talks to you, then it talks to you," she says, maybe a bit stubborn, but she's still lashing out after years of being told the Raggedy Doctor hadn't been real. "Maybe it's just cross? Did you piss it off?" she quips wryly.

[seekingcrocodile]

"You will get no arguments from me. I enjoy looking at the ocean myself." Right now it's the closest he can get to sailing on it, so it will have to do. He'll manage.

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[chosenbytheocean]

"Yeah."

Moana lapped into silence, looking out at the ocean with all her dreams held warmly in her heart. She had hope now and she knew she wasn't alone.

[chosenbytheocean]

Moana smiled. "Yeah. I'll show you. I think you'd like it there." It was a beautiful island and one that Moana wanted to share with the friends that she had made here. "Thank you, Jax." She didn't consider herself to be a kid, but she knew that people saw her idealism and oddities as child-like. Not to mention her apparent innocence and lack of knowledge about the world outside of her island.

No matter what she faced, she didn't want to shy away from it. Like Tamatoa, she wanted to face things head on. With Jax by her side, she felt like she had the strength to do that.

[chosenbytheocean]

Moana released a short huffy breath that in any other situation might have been laughter. "If it was, it would have told me. The ocean is…" It was very sassy and wasn't afraid to tell Moana when it was displeased with her.

"I just..." She was scared that the ocean had given up on her. "I'll keep going." She declared in a soft voice. "Even if the ocean doesn't respond. I won't give up. The ocean choose me…" She paused again. "I have to believe that there is a reason why." That it wouldn't come to regret choosing Moana instead of someone more capable.

[bit_fairytale]

"There probably is," Amy agrees, because in all of time and space, she knows that there's always reasons why. It's one of the old reliable things that she clings to, because there has to be a reason why she's here, why Rory's gone, why they can't see the Doctor ever again. Even if she doesn't understand it, she has to believe in the why.

"Come on," she encourages. "I hate walking back alone, even if I like being here alone. Come keep me company," Amy coaxes, which is more of a demand than anything else.

end?

[chosenbytheocean]

Moana hesitated before pushing herself to her feet. "Yeah." She brushed the sand off her skirt and legs before turning back towards Amy. There was a light expression pulling across her features though it wasn't quite a smile.

"Thank you Amy."

[king_in_the_north]

"You needn't be strong all of the time," Robb quietly assured her, and reached a calloused hand up to gently brush away her tear. "You've been so strong, Moana. As strong as nearly anyone I know. Stronger, maybe, because most of them are very grim about it," he added with a smile, and then pressed a kiss to her dark hair, finding it warmed by the sun.

"It's all right to cry or be sad. It can be our secret if that's how you want it, hmm?"

[chosenbytheocean]

She exhaled a breath of laughter. "Yeah. A secret." It felt better that way. She wasn't a princess of anyone in this village and she hated the title but she wanted to be strong for those around her. Robb could understand and, for that, Moana was glad.

She closed her eyes and leaned against him.

"Just... a little bit longer."