"I know that, but it's difficult even knowing that. When I carried you, I felt as if we were connected. After every dark moment and every painful bit of news, I had you with me and it felt as if I were drawing strength from you. You were a part of me, a part of my heart. In coming here and seeing you grown, I have missed so much. It makes me feel...empty."

She shook her head, toying with the bow in her hands. "I don't know what I want or what will make it better. I thought distance might help heal some of that, but I don't know."