"Yours wasn't a picnic either." But they didn't witness visually what hurt him so badly, he only explained it later. And she could tell how much pain that must have been to experience. She is not that surprised to hear that he has worse ones. He's older and he is clearly from a difficult world and situation.
She sighs and puts down her knitting for the moment. "That memory in particular is ... complex. Because I didn't want to die, but I accepted it, and living ended up being really complicated." She doesn't know how to put into words what she's thinking, but he'll try. It's not like she talks a lot about any of this. "You saw that I was possessed before being abandoned in space. I was in a coma right before that, this was the first time I'd been awake and myself since that happened. I didn't know that I was a sorceress, which is ... not a great thing to be, when several sorceresses have been evil, violent dictators."
It's all really ugly and she can't help thinking of some of the things she and Seifer talked about. "We were stuck in a time loop, things happened the way they happened, and we beat her before she destroyed the world, but there was no choice involved. And then I'm here, and the only person who made all of that less scary was taken from me." How would she be getting along here if she still had him to lean on? But was that a crutch? Probably. "It wasn't even the memory that bugged me, it's that whoever is in charge here had control of me again. They transported me, held me in place, forced me to see things, and I think I'm in a time loop again. Someone will always be able to do that to me again." It was a fear for everyone, yes, but she specifically, with her experience, it is like hitting a trigger button over and over again.
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She sighs and puts down her knitting for the moment. "That memory in particular is ... complex. Because I didn't want to die, but I accepted it, and living ended up being really complicated." She doesn't know how to put into words what she's thinking, but he'll try. It's not like she talks a lot about any of this. "You saw that I was possessed before being abandoned in space. I was in a coma right before that, this was the first time I'd been awake and myself since that happened. I didn't know that I was a sorceress, which is ... not a great thing to be, when several sorceresses have been evil, violent dictators."
It's all really ugly and she can't help thinking of some of the things she and Seifer talked about. "We were stuck in a time loop, things happened the way they happened, and we beat her before she destroyed the world, but there was no choice involved. And then I'm here, and the only person who made all of that less scary was taken from me." How would she be getting along here if she still had him to lean on? But was that a crutch? Probably. "It wasn't even the memory that bugged me, it's that whoever is in charge here had control of me again. They transported me, held me in place, forced me to see things, and I think I'm in a time loop again. Someone will always be able to do that to me again." It was a fear for everyone, yes, but she specifically, with her experience, it is like hitting a trigger button over and over again.