He's compromised. Since he'd met Jyn Erso, he'd been compromised. It wasn't because in her he had an exploitable weakness. If one got to choose their weaknesses, he would have chosen her in every way. Even strategically. Anyone trying to get at him by going at her would be in store for some nasty shocks. From Jyn.
No. Jyn compromised him because he couldn't disconnect. Couldn't disengage from her.
…except when he dislocated from everything…
He couldn't make dispassionate decisions.
And the more fraught the situation, the more dispassionate you should be.
The last five minutes, even, he'd already failed. When a veteran's reliving a trauma, you don't engage the symptomatic behavior. Don't fight with it, don't argue about it, don't try to appeal to reason or evidence. You just stay with them, try to make them feel safe; deescalate; contain.
He knows it's self-defeating. Not just for him but for Jyn. The desperation. Unable only to think about what's best (if compassionlessly) for her while his every nerve end and neuron is screaming don't do this please don't do this I need you come back
So when, no thanks to himself, only to her, it works… for a moment he sees Jyn again in her eyes and hears her voice… he utterly loses his caution and precautions—far far too soon.
His other arm is still immobilized, in a sling, to heal his recently-relocated shoulder, he can't shift the pendant to his other hand. He lets the pendant just slip lower, the cord twined about his fingers, keeping it secured but freeing his palm… so he could move quickly forward, reach to touch her face, breathe like a relieved sob, "Jyn…"
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No. Jyn compromised him because he couldn't disconnect. Couldn't disengage from her.
…except when he dislocated from everything…
He couldn't make dispassionate decisions.
And the more fraught the situation, the more dispassionate you should be.
The last five minutes, even, he'd already failed. When a veteran's reliving a trauma, you don't engage the symptomatic behavior. Don't fight with it, don't argue about it, don't try to appeal to reason or evidence. You just stay with them, try to make them feel safe; deescalate; contain.
He knows it's self-defeating. Not just for him but for Jyn. The desperation. Unable only to think about what's best (if compassionlessly) for her while his every nerve end and neuron is screaming don't do this please don't do this I need you come back
So when, no thanks to himself, only to her, it works… for a moment he sees Jyn again in her eyes and hears her voice… he utterly loses his caution and precautions—far far too soon.
His other arm is still immobilized, in a sling, to heal his recently-relocated shoulder, he can't shift the pendant to his other hand. He lets the pendant just slip lower, the cord twined about his fingers, keeping it secured but freeing his palm… so he could move quickly forward, reach to touch her face, breathe like a relieved sob, "Jyn…"