"Would you kill him, if he was here and you could," Cougar thinks this is important. If she's not killing him in the dream, is it because she doesn't want to deep down or is it because she doesn't know how to. Sometimes it's not about the functional knowledge, but not knowing how to live with the taking of a life of someone. "Would you go back and do it again? Shoot him better?" Shoot him so that she was the one who ended things, he means, because then at least there is the sense of completion.

He takes a deep breath to give himself the strength to keep talking. "The twenty-five children, I carried them onto the helicopter and put them there myself. I told them to hold on tight for the ride. I promised it would be okay," he says roughly, his heart sinking. "They shot it down, the whole thing up in flames and there was nothing left but teeth and pieces." Twenty-five children and he's the one who put them on the helicopter. He's one of the ones who should have been dead, instead. "Max and the CIA killed them. I will kill Max," he vows.