It is, though. It's the man he has to become when he shuts off his brain and does the things that he needs to, in order to protect the people he cares about. He hadn't hesitated when he'd pulled the trigger on Wade, when he'd set things in motion and killed Roque in the process. Guilt twists and stabs in his gut and he holds onto her, wishing that he could agree that it wasn't him, but that's not the case.

"I'm sorry, Veronica," he gets out in English. "It is."

"I'm not a good man," he tells her, brow furrowed with the pain of having to say such a thing and know that it's true, to a degree, in your heart.