He makes no move to get away though, his fingers tightening around Vasquez's, moving a step in closer to him rather than away.
"And you were living with that and knowing I'm gone," he says, at least having the common sense not to use the word dead in that moment. "And just gonna go on like that."
His hands do release Vasquez's then, if only so that he can wrap them around the other man's shoulders and pull him in close, hugging him to him. "I need you," he whispers against his ear. "I never wanted to put down like I have with you, and I want that. I know I'm an ass sometimes, but don't let me screw this up. Okay?"
He's not sure he's ready for those words, never said them, but he knows what he wants, and this is it.
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"And you were living with that and knowing I'm gone," he says, at least having the common sense not to use the word dead in that moment. "And just gonna go on like that."
His hands do release Vasquez's then, if only so that he can wrap them around the other man's shoulders and pull him in close, hugging him to him. "I need you," he whispers against his ear. "I never wanted to put down like I have with you, and I want that. I know I'm an ass sometimes, but don't let me screw this up. Okay?"
He's not sure he's ready for those words, never said them, but he knows what he wants, and this is it.