Seifer just raises an eyebrow. He's worried, he thinks he's allowed to be worried. This conversation has gotten far too heavy for humor, but thanks to Nida's confidence boost he is at least feeling less immediately down on himself. Just resigned. "You start whinin' about it I'm not carryin' you." He offers with a wry smirk. Okay... maybe he'll take your joke.
"I did enough," He is still absolutely unwilling to let his slate be so easily wiped clean. It's too easy. It's wrong for it to be that easy. Not after what he'd done to everyone. Squall and Rinoa especially. He finds it hard to believe he'd ever admit to such a thing, did Squall make him somehow? He looks troubled. But... that person in his vision didn't look much like him at all. Hard to believe that had been him. Yet it was, undeniably. How do you separate all of that out? Nida's right about the ghosts, he still has a lot of fighting to do.
"Yeah, well..." He offers a half-hearted shrug and a far more depressed smile than he intended. "I know." Negative attention was so much better than no attention. Maybe Seifer was saying he got that better than Nida might have realized.
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"I did enough," He is still absolutely unwilling to let his slate be so easily wiped clean. It's too easy. It's wrong for it to be that easy. Not after what he'd done to everyone. Squall and Rinoa especially. He finds it hard to believe he'd ever admit to such a thing, did Squall make him somehow? He looks troubled. But... that person in his vision didn't look much like him at all. Hard to believe that had been him. Yet it was, undeniably. How do you separate all of that out? Nida's right about the ghosts, he still has a lot of fighting to do.
"Yeah, well..." He offers a half-hearted shrug and a far more depressed smile than he intended. "I know." Negative attention was so much better than no attention. Maybe Seifer was saying he got that better than Nida might have realized.