A sigh. He's not facing Nida anymore, doesn't want to show his face it might give something away. Seifer's never been as good at hiding his emotions as Squall, even if he does give it a damned valiant effort. "I wasn't even good enough for that, Nida." He didn't even have SeeD to make him feel like he had value.

At least, for a little bit, as a Knight he felt powerful. Worthwhile, wanted. Even if it was a lie. But for just a little bit he could pretend he had real value, not the self-inflated value he knew was a fabrication and joke. Always had Xu there to remind him as much. "At least Garden wanted you."