"Shey and Nidera," he supplies, and yeah, that isn't tears in his eyes for real. It's onion. "I got to watch the whole thing. Again. The GFs didn't take that memory, Seifer. I repressed it. Because once I saw it... I remembered more of that day. Of the days after. And..."

When he said it to Billy, the guy had about flipped over it. Seifer, on the other hand, Seifer would get it. Not only because of Garden, but because of his time as the Knight, under Ultimecia's hold.

"Strategically, I have spent a few nights up realizing that it was a poor tactical decision for them to let me live. I've been spending my nights avoiding the nightmares by analyzing how much easier crushing Timber could have been with some tactical tweaks. How I would have done it. That SeeD part of me just keeps trying to take over, to protect me from the trauma. Compartmentalize, put it aside, be the mercenary and not the man. I needed to feel something to make sure I'm Nida. That I'm me. Not... not him."