"Jess killed him three times, Rhodes. Twice in that place. Didn't matter."
No one listened to them, just as no one had listened to her in New York until it was way too damn late. He blows his breath out his nose in a thin stream.
"I don't— wish it, I mean. I can't explain it, but... for a long time it's all I could think about, you know. Going to see my family. I figured that's the way it would end for me, once I finished." Once he avenged them, he means. He always thought he'd be dead afterward, but when he wasn't it was like a second birth. "But I didn't die. Maybe I couldn't, maybe survivin' was the only way I could make their deaths mean something."
His eyes well up again, but he doesn't let a single tear fall, just stares at Rhodey and makes the other man accept his truth. He gets wanting to die, but that's not what this was. This was an op that went off without a hitch.
cw: suicidal ideation
No one listened to them, just as no one had listened to her in New York until it was way too damn late. He blows his breath out his nose in a thin stream.
"I don't— wish it, I mean. I can't explain it, but... for a long time it's all I could think about, you know. Going to see my family. I figured that's the way it would end for me, once I finished." Once he avenged them, he means. He always thought he'd be dead afterward, but when he wasn't it was like a second birth. "But I didn't die. Maybe I couldn't, maybe survivin' was the only way I could make their deaths mean something."
His eyes well up again, but he doesn't let a single tear fall, just stares at Rhodey and makes the other man accept his truth. He gets wanting to die, but that's not what this was. This was an op that went off without a hitch.