Retirement was never in the cards for her. It was fight until she died, and that was exactly what happened. She picked the time and the how, in the end. They were in an emergency situation and it was all of them or just her. A very easy choice. Hawke doesn't know what to make of a life without violence. It feels wrong to her, but she truly is trying.

She smiles faintly. "Matt, I just told you my ex is a terrorist. I've also been moderately long term involved with a beautiful but complicated pirate who also nearly got our city destroyed. Really my love life might be the greatest threat to it." She can joke about it, yep. It's difficult not to, over something that ridiculous. "I've had a lot of relationship struggles, if you want to talk it's the least I can do after drama vomiting all over you a moment ago."