Gaps. Well shit. He wants to ask, to talk to him about this, and what he really meant and now he's facing the knowledge he could be putting him on the spot. Fuck.

He winces though at the comment about him looking, ducking his head and looking to the side then. Both embarrassed because he's not sure what to think of that, and not sure it's really what Vasquez wants, and not having a damn clue how to handle any of this.

"I still don't get how I died and I'm here. I don't understand it. But..." he says, holding up a hand, again not looking because he got called out on it. "I believe you. I believe it happened. I just... Kinda sucks knowing when this place gets done with me I'm gonna die."

And his voice softens then, knowing maybe that sounds stupid since it's already happened, but it's something he's been thinking about since Vasquez took off to play prairie pup or whatever.