[ Something in that drags a laugh out of him. Head lolling down, eyes squeezed shut against a burst of pain somewhere near his head. ]
Buck has given me shit since they day we met. He's ... he has that right. I've -- look, I was a stupid little punk. Got into fights that should have killed me. And one day, this kid just waded in and took my side. And he never stopped. I don't know what I did to deserve him, but. Maybe he just likes stupid little punks.
[ It's more complicated than that, but Steve has never truly been able to put into words what Bucky means to him. Not flowery ones, anyway. It's what he told Sam and Nat during the DC incident. Even when he had nothing, he had Bucky. And clearly he's been a piss poor friend in return. But maybe that's his depression talking. The stuff he ignores and pretends doesn't exist. ]
I'm getting that now, that you poke and tease. At .. I thought it was because you didn't like me. [ And how can he describe 30's mores to someone with a modern outlook? He can't. Not really. ] I think I'm too ..uh, straightforward. For most people. I say what I think. Even when I shouldn't.
[ He finally glances back up, the smile fading. ] It's been there a long time, Tony. Doesn't leave, just gets quieter. But I'll keep your offer in mind. [ Cause God forbid Steve Rogers actually asks for help. Ever. ]
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Buck has given me shit since they day we met. He's ... he has that right. I've -- look, I was a stupid little punk. Got into fights that should have killed me. And one day, this kid just waded in and took my side. And he never stopped. I don't know what I did to deserve him, but. Maybe he just likes stupid little punks.
[ It's more complicated than that, but Steve has never truly been able to put into words what Bucky means to him. Not flowery ones, anyway. It's what he told Sam and Nat during the DC incident. Even when he had nothing, he had Bucky. And clearly he's been a piss poor friend in return. But maybe that's his depression talking. The stuff he ignores and pretends doesn't exist. ]
I'm getting that now, that you poke and tease. At .. I thought it was because you didn't like me. [ And how can he describe 30's mores to someone with a modern outlook? He can't. Not really. ] I think I'm too ..uh, straightforward. For most people. I say what I think. Even when I shouldn't.
[ He finally glances back up, the smile fading. ] It's been there a long time, Tony. Doesn't leave, just gets quieter. But I'll keep your offer in mind. [ Cause God forbid Steve Rogers actually asks for help. Ever. ]