January 5th, right after Lucy's postDesmond was still angry. He wasn't angry at Lucy, but he was angry at Connor, and also, in general, sometimes his anger had a way of simmering and lasting. Still, when she said that, he instantly refused to accept it. Connor wasn't gone, he might've just run off somewhere. Maybe he knew somehow that Desmond had some shit to talk about with him, or he went scouting, whatever it was, he planned on finding him so they could have a throw down.
On that day, he can be seen all around the north village and then past the boundaries of both villages, wandering aimlessly and clearly pissed off. Occasionally he shouts his ancestor's name, so he's looking for him, but he gets visibly more anxious with time.
The rest of JanuaryDesmond wasn't handling the loss very well, which was insane in his mind considering he wasn't supposed to know the ancestors personally either, so why did he care so much? Well, he did. He cared a whole fucking lot. At one point he decides to take out his fury by
cutting wood for an entire day, eventually overworked and sweating, shirtless even in the cold, just whacking away at the wood like that would make it all feel better. He goes to the
healing hot springs after frankly hurting himself from doing it too long.
Sometimes he can be seen jumping from
roof to roof, climbing buildings, climbing trees, just keeping in shape and practicing the skills he didn't want to lose. He scouts out a lot in the
North Village, having some ideas he wanted to float across to Bull later, and also because it's quiet and that makes him feel better.
As the month goes by he starts getting noticeably less moody though and more friendly, going back to
lunches at the inn and
hanging out at the fountain.
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