"Should have been..." Maybe not today but the countless other times when she should have died. How many times was it going to happen? How many times would she walk away when somebody else would take her place? Mason, Dimitri, Peeta? Was this what it was like for Anna? What it means to be kissed by shadows?

"And now I can't -"A hysterical bubble of laughter spilling over and she can hear it, the madness in her words as she rocks her body back and forth. So like Adrian, like Lissa at her worst but it was Dimitri who could always pull her back from the edge. The one who always knew how to get through and he was gone. Dead. Just like the rest. Just like Elena. " - skipped the line and now it's all."

"Should stay away - safer...."