There's this logical part of Veronica that is very clear on what is and isn't her fault. Yes, she'd been naive with J.D., perhaps willfully so. But she hadn't truly wanted to kill anyone, not even Heather -- Fuck, she'd been a stupid kid! Stupid kids say and think stupid things they don't mean! She knows objectively, when she lets herself step back from it all, that she'd made clear from the beginning that pranks are supposed to be harmless.
But did she? Did she really?
There's this guilt-shaped stone that sits way down in her stomach all of the time, telling her that she should have done more. She sees Ram's little sister's face in her mind and knows that saving the school that day wasn't nearly enough, not by a long shot. Why didn't she just do more?
"Shit," she says, and pushes out a tremulous sigh. "Look, I can't just be walking down the street and tell you this story, Frank," she says, and looks back to him as she draws to a stop. "You know I killed a person, and it sucked, it still sucks, everyday it sucks. I don't want it to be just one more thing I tell you. And if I'm going to do that, I probably should sit down."
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But did she? Did she really?
There's this guilt-shaped stone that sits way down in her stomach all of the time, telling her that she should have done more. She sees Ram's little sister's face in her mind and knows that saving the school that day wasn't nearly enough, not by a long shot. Why didn't she just do more?
"Shit," she says, and pushes out a tremulous sigh. "Look, I can't just be walking down the street and tell you this story, Frank," she says, and looks back to him as she draws to a stop. "You know I killed a person, and it sucked, it still sucks, everyday it sucks. I don't want it to be just one more thing I tell you. And if I'm going to do that, I probably should sit down."