It's perfect. He's perfect. In a moment of unthinking selfishness, that's all Bodhi's aware of. In a bigger picture kind of way, he knows he should want, does want Jude to be able to touch him freely, to close the space between them. But right now? Staying still, no hands, no pressure, nothing to distract Bodhi from his rash decision and how good it feels. He did it. He kissed the boy he really likes. He'll be able to do it again.

And even if it only chases off the agony over Kira for a few moments, those are amazing moments. He's wonderfully lost in warmth and softness and the sound of that gorgeous voice. He feels like he could do it again, could do anything...

The rush of infatuation and his brain's attempt to flee from its current reality ebbs away again after a few seconds. He just takes Jude's hand back and wraps it up in both of his rather than do something he'll regret. "I know. I just... I really need this right now."